Emotions were not forbidden for Killian. He felt, but a lot of times, these were all intense feelings, when he felt anger, rage and frustration.

Killian, accustomed to intense emotions like anger and frustration, found himself in an unfamiliar state as he held the unconscious Amara. However, as he cradled the unconscious Amara, an unusual numbness seized him. It wasn't fear or concern that paralyzed him, but a peculiar sensation that defied his usual emotional repertoire, a feeling foreign to the usually temper-driven Killian Suvillian.